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MaryBeary
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Name: Mary
Country: United States
State: Louisiana
Metro: Baton Rouge
Gender: Female
Interests: I ♥ outdoor activities--I love to go hiking, kayaking, canoeing, camping, etc. I enjoy a good book in my hammock, I like spending time with friends, I'm a big movie person, and yea...
Occupation: Graduate Student
Industry: Clinical Psychology
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AIM:  Messybug2003
Member Since:
9/8/2003
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| " You give and take away....You give and take away....yet still I choose to say 'Lord blessed be your name.'"
God brought an amazing man of God into my life on January 20th and on October 9th that same man walked away. This after booking a wedding chapel to get married next summer and committing to get married and be together forever. He just walked away.....He just walked away... and I'm just left here, asking why? Why God? I may never get an answer, but I trust that God is bigger than this situation. He knows the desires of my heart and He knows that I was always faithful to Tye. That I supported him and loved him and prayed for him and with him. I sought God for every part of our relationship, and I always believed that Tye did too. I trusted him and never doubted him....until now. I have no idea why God is letting this happen. I have no idea why I hafta go through this. I have no idea....and I wish I did. But I may never know. Right now I just want to heal. I just want to not be broken anymore. I want to be able to cut those ties and move on, trusting that God has got something better for me. I also want to punch Tye in the face....but that's a totally different deal.... Please be in prayer for me. My heart has not seen this brokenness before..... | | |
| 2009 is more than half way over and what a year it has been. I've finally made some amazing Christian friends here in Baton Rouge. I'm falling crazy in love with a guy I'd never dream I'd find in Baton Rouge (or anywhere else for that matter). Whispers of future weddings surround me. I turned 24 about a month ago. I will have my master's degree by December. My little (baby!!) sister graduated from high school and is starting college in a matter of weeks. I am constantly reminded of what amazing friends and family I have back in Arkansas (and other areas) as well. I am blessed. The sign above my kitchen bar that says "count your blessings" is ever so appropriate. Life is good. Enough about me....my brother Dan is leaving for Iraq today for at least a year. Pray for him. ...and for his wife, Sarah who is living in Washington (state) by herself (all of her family is from Arkansas as well). I can't even fathom what she is going through. And I can't even fathom the things that my brother will face. So pray for them.....they need it. Thanks. | | |
| My heart is beaming....my pastor, Dino Rizzo, wrote a book and it was released this week. I bought it this morning and had to force myself to put it down in order to study for my big final tomorrow (prayers are needed by the way!!). The book is a story of our church essentially, but it's so much more than that. It's called Servolution (Amazon it, it's awesome!). Our church motto or slogan or whatever is "a healing place for a hurting world." This church has a huge heart for serving the community and the world. This church practices what it preaches. There are "outreaches" going on every day of the week throughout Baton Rouge, Louisiana, and the world, as we have planted churches in Africa and other areas in the world. This church plays hangman with residents at nursing homes; gives water to people coming out of bars at 2a.m.; cooks meals for disabled people; gives roses to prostitutes; picks up trash in poor neighborhoods; fixes the cars of single mothers and widows; paints schools; hands out donuts to people at bus stops; gives gum to business people at lunchtime downtown; I could go on and on and on... These things are all no strings attached. We don't come with "tracts" or WWJD bracelets or whatever. We don't serve with the expectation that these people will come to church or pray some prayer or whatever... It's also not done in order to brag or receive media attention. Motives are good.
I love that I found a church that is willing to humble themselves to serve in any capacity that is needed. I love being a part of something greater than myself. As I was reading this book and thinking about my role in God's kingdom, He begin to lay some things on my heart. I'm in grad school right now getting my Ph.D in Clinical Psychology. When I get out I will have $80,000- $100,000 in student loan debt (so basically I'll need a good paying job as soon as I graduate). My greatest desire is to work with special needs kids, specifically those with autism, to provide therapy to improve their lives and the lives of their families. There aren't a lot of job opportunities in Louisiana to do this. But God has really burdened my heart for this state. So on to what God laid on my heart. It was like "yea, there aren't a lot of job opportunities in Louisiana to do what you wanna do---so make them!" Umm.....ok??? God just laid on my heart to serve those who wouldn't have the money (or the insurance coverage) to afford expensive therapy. My first thought was "Um, yea, that huge debt isn't gonna just go away...." God answered that remark with a "just follow me." So I don't know what all this means....but my heart is overjoyed and yet burdened at the same time. How does this play out? Where do I start? (clearly the first step is to get the degree and get licensed...haha) So pray for me....as the next few years are going to be a big journey for me. Figuring out where and how God wants me to serve Him... | | |
| I wrote this almost 2 months ago, and it rings in my head often....
"As I talked to Jody on top of Pinnacle Mt. about her husband, I thought about the things I want in a husband. I want a man who is gentle and patient with me, yet tough and rugged as a man should be. I want a man who is self-controlled and holds no 'addictions.' I want a man who will pray with me and for me. I want a man who is so focused on [God] that he almost has to trip to notice me (but not fall away from God at all in his pursuit of me). I want a man who loves the outdoors as much as I do and will adventure with me all my life. I want a man who is even-tempered and slow to anger. I want a man who will forgive me for my mistakes in life. I want a man who is passionate. I want a man who is romantic, even in the little things. I want a man who is humble in the blessings [God] gives him and generous in using his spiritual gifts to bless others. I want to possess qualities that a man with that description wants."
....I think I may have found him....and everyday I stand in awe at God's glory...
I am blessed beyond what I imagined at this point in my life and everyday I am learning to count my blessings....God is good.....Pastor Dino talked about how the thing that will prevent us from being CLOSER (To God. To Home. To Others.--our 3 month series) is familiarity. "We cannot miss a moment with God. We cannot become too familiar." We have to stay fresh..... Hmm....I breathe a sigh of peace. I tend to become too routine and "familiar" with my prayers....God is changing that in me...teaching me to pray in BIG FAITH the things I truly desire and to believe Him for it. It's whoa... How is it that the semester that I expected to be the worst ever is turning out to be a time of my life where God is doing amazing things and I have had time to serve Him and seek Him more than I have in years?? GOD IS GOOD...
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| The phrase "count your blessings" has continually been in my head lately. Probably b/c I so often fail to do so. I so often focus on the things in my life that I don't like and forget that God has blessed me immensely. I made a lil' list of just some of the blessings in my life and then I thanked God for each of them...
"Thank you God for the friendships I have formed here in BR. Thank you for my church here and the small group that you have brought me to. Thank you for amazing family and friends that despite being miles away, will always be there for me. Thank you for my apartment that you provided just for me. Thank you for a car that runs well. Thank you for my health. Thank you for the brain you blessed me with that has gotten me this far. Thank you for sunsets and mountains and rivers. Thank you for who you are."
Then I prayed for the new year that is upon us. "As 2008 was a year of 'surviving', I want 2009 to be more."
I read my Bible and prayed for 2+ hours today.....I miss that. I want more.... | | |
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